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Monday, February 25, 2008

Learning experience


How do i start this,umm, We're back?!?!

Yep! We talked again, and the result was beautiful. Good for the both of us. Each earning respect. At first, we were both doubtful of what will happen after our talk which was about to grow as another argument. But as we listened, understand and learn from each other, the result was good. Good in a sense that we're back, not totally I guess, but at some point back to our usual status plus a more natural, understanding, and mature relationship.

Realization. We both realize that for more than 5 years of being with each other, the part where we do what we want to do, without having to worry about "what if she would do/feel if I blah2x with my friends" or "what if I do this/that", or all those things that we have to do personally, we still have yet, done nothing about it. We used to fear what each of us would feel if I would do something for myself and vice versa. We realize that we have to loosen up a bit. This is the part of our relationship that made us feel Fed Up! We're like prisoners of our own relationship.

Now, we're good. At last. For the very last time, I hope. We just have to understand one another, and give each other space from time to time to do things for our own and still have time for us, our growing relationship. I thanked her many times for coming back and being the old her again. I know it's not easy for her also to bring her old feeling back for me, but I can see her effort of making things back the way it was before. What I can do is try to give her what she wants, and do new things that would make the both of us be thrilled and excited again. Something new, I guess, would make it easier for us to be back on track.

Let the good times roll ;p

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

A very good feeling...

Im feeling good today. Very good actually. The feeling seem's very natural. I guess this is what you feel when you miss a person so much and suddenly that person shows up! Ha! Exciting.Yep! I was surprised to see her. My partner went to the house early this evening after her long exhausting work just to surprise me. And surprised i was. I really can't explain the feeling. It just feels good to see her, knowing that she really meant what she said to me. Her promises seems true. And I know it is.We have some talks. And it was a very encouraging and comforting talk. I can feel her sincerity about the things between us. I just love her so much. It was nice. It was good. Everything was true.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Question's. Answers.

It's been days now since me and partner last talked face to face. We only communicate through text messaging(SMS). The fight we had blew up just like that. I don't really know if it is right to call it a fight. Our arguments were more like a debate. Lot's of questions with no definite answer.

We decided to see each other. She went to the house to settle our confusions. Let the debate begin (wink ;p). At first, we were just arguing. Those usual arguements. None of us wants to go down and give way. We both are strong and confident on what we believe. Pride. Questions were asks, no answers were given. Then suddenly everything went quiet. Asleep?? nahh.. :D

The talks, the questions raised made us think. I guess, that made our mouth shut for a moment. We were pondering on all those confusing part of our relationship. Then we started to talk. A give and take kinda talk.

After the long, exhausting, teeth cracking, mouth drying, and mind blowing talks we had, we were settled. Yes. It was good. We learned to listen to each other, try to understand one another and hear each one's side then looking for the best possible answers to all those arguments.

It was tough to accept the truth, that's reality I guess. But it's even harder to look for remedies. It's hard tho' but I guess dealing with it will make us become a more stronger individual and a more mature and loving couple.

Conclusion to our great debate? Forgive. Give. Understand.

Give. What is interesting to me is that from etymology point of view, the word ´give´ shares the same root in the Old English with the word ´forgive´.

In a way, it makes perfect sense. When we forgive someone, we do give a piece of ourselves to that person.

Amazingly, it works both ways. When we give, we might also need to forgive them - if by any chance we do not get something in return, or even worse.

So we try to remember: giving is a one way process, unfortunately. When we give, we give. We do not expect something in return, unless you are in somekind of a business deal. If you do get something, great. Do forgive them (and yourself), if you do not.


We're back! Good as new i guess. And hopefully for the rest of our lives.

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